People who think Depression is a choice, take a second to think. How would it feel to wake up and not have the emotional strength to face people. To think that time is just passing by with no real reason. To feel so alone even when you are sitting in a room full of people. To have to put on a face and hide your feelings because no one would care anyway. To lose friends because you can't find the strength to go out and you can't physically be 'happy'. To cry yourself to sleep, hoping you wouldn't wake up then when you do you are exhausted from the night before, and it all starts again. You try to hide your feelings hoping no one would notice and if you slip up all you get called is attention seeking and 'emo'. Now tell me why someone would choose that? Depression is an illness, not a choice.
And even though I'm telling you I wanted you to fight for me, you're saying it's over and only just now telling me you were unhappy. Why couldn't you have done this when you started to feel unhappy so I could still be with you now?
Yet I have, and now I can’t take it back. I hate that you are so intent to forgive me for something so horrible. But I need to let you have time to think this is over, even if I’m bawling my eyes out and I can’t concentrate on any of my work. FUCK I HATE MYSELF!!! </3
i did feel quite good. someone told me i was beautiful today and someone horrible told me i was far from it. now i'm sad and wish i could crawl into a ball and cry my eyes out. :/ i feel shit . . . . . . . .